hello ivan! =)

MOVED.

2009-07-06T02:55:00.004+08:00

relink us, dear readers!

http://tasteofchicken.blogspot.com/

see you there! =)

GOODBYE IVAN.

2009-06-27T01:20:00.004+08:00

"life is made up of meetings and partings. people come into your life everyday. you say good morning; you say good evening, some stay for a few minutes; some stay for a week; some a year; others a whole lifetime. no matter who it is, you'll meet and then you'll part. but now it's time for us to part."
- adapted by if you could see me now, cecelia ahern. (ivan)

dearest ivanly love,

thank you for being here with me. thank you for being there for me, all these while. thank you for watching me grow. weaker nor stronger. thank you. thank you for listening to my sorrows, my pains. thank you for letting me pour out my whole feelings. thank you. thank you for sharing my laughters, my joys, my greatest moments. thank you for loving me. and accepting me for who i am. thank you. thank you for being my inner strength when i needed one. the fact that, it was in me all along. thank you for saving me when my whole life crumbles. thank you. most of all, thank you for the make believe. it seems so like real that we both know that it's hard to explain. you jolly know well, that you will always be remembered, ivan. you're the place, called home.

it may seem that i am leaving. but leaving doesn't mean leave without rememberance, without a clear state of mind. leaving at times means you have too. every novel has an ending. so does the movies, the product lifespan, and our lives. i've made a choice to leave because i'm not getting any younger, and making strangers think how berserk i am! talking to a blog, naming it ivan still! how bizarre that could be. and next thing they'll be running away from me. hah. but the fact that people don't know is that, i feel you iv'. and it seems that you are actually a part of me. you're like real. my inner strength within, my trusted instincts. that's the craziest imagination! you've stayed with me long, long enough to let me go. set me free. watching over me. and smile widely. ohhh, i damned right hear you said. "run sarah, run! run to the arms where you belong. have faith. trust. and be honour to be loved. run sarah, run! run to the arms where you belong." =)

lots of love, sarahlee.

ya'Allah, thank you for the beautiful imagination. now it's the reality i am living for.

CROSSED OUT.

2009-06-25T20:54:00.001+08:00

i am very crossed out with people who doesn't reply to my text.

be it "are you coming along tomorrow?" or "where are you?" or "are you stupid??"

yes, stupidity. stupid. it's so simple. it's a question asked, and all you do is the need to answer. what's so difficult about that. my God! God give you a brain to think, eyes to read, lips to answer, fingers to damn right type it all down and reply! unless you have a heartless heart. goodness gracious! by replying, it's a sense of acknowledgement. it's a sense of letting someone knows that you are there, unless it's a wrong number. i guess these kind of people doesn't know the means of waiting for a reply, how suck that feeling could be. and you know what, tell me about it!

tsk tsk tsk, thou shall believe in karma. amen.

ya'Allah, tenangkanlah hatiku ini. kuatkanlah imanku. jauhilah perasaan marah. subhan'Allah, astaghfirullah.

MUUUUAAAAHHHH!

2009-06-24T14:53:00.002+08:00

thank you ivan.

for letting me story-tell.

tahu takot! =D

ya'Allah, thank you!

AWAK NOTICE TAK?

2009-06-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

i don't know. when renna is still here, i love wearing skirts like her. and i always read books, so therefore she started to read books too. it's like i want to be her, she wants to be me. and this time, i've started to wear shorts and carry bagpack (sampai lah banyak dah koyak! hahaha!) just to be alike azri. behloh kan daku. dah lah mata sakit same macam dier. hahaha. it's just strange, but it's happening. but all i know, i totally miss the feeling. and i'm feeling it all again. =,)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

TIME TIME DATING DULU.

2009-06-24T14:38:00.000+08:00

the funniest thing was that,

fuzza and appy ge dating samer ngan kite sey!

same same sey. persamaan. gooddddd!

hahahahahahaha. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

ON THE WAY!

2009-06-24T14:33:00.000+08:00

i know it bugs him. alot. just because he dah ord, i told him lets keep the hair long! well, i am excited. the messy short curly hair. ahhhhh, with goatee. with nerd specs. that's it. boleh faint! hahaha. yalor, he always says "i look like adam brody." boleh? takpelah, jangan kuatir, i also perasantan nasha aziz. hahahahahaha. but then kan, after the grumpyness on how he did his hair, well..... lets say cut it! bye bye hair. and ohhhh the goatee. yang ohhh so sikit. hehehe. i still love it thou. i love everything about him. no matter ada goatee ke tak; sikit ke tompok2 ke lebat ke panjang macam wak2 ke, hair pendek ke botak ke panjang ke sikit ke. i tetap sayangkan you! sayang, cut hair cam ivan ah. botak. hahaha. tak eh, botak tu baby, uwek uwek. that's what you said time dating-dating! hahahaha. i masih ingat tau. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

HAIR REVIEW.

2009-06-24T13:43:00.003+08:00

okay, lets share info. glee! =)

this review is for women who loves curls and yes, man who loves women's curls. hohoho! well, i just bought this strawberry hair curler at http://beauty-randomness.weebly.com/hair-gadgets.html. and you know what, i'm such a kluzts! i did the curling when my hair is still wet, so the curls didn't even have time to autobots, transform. hoho. shall do it the next time i'm out for a date. haha. so yeah, i love strawberries. they are sexy. i know, what the hell. it's cute mah, so i bought two packs and decieded to give it a go! pardon the cutesy face. just papp me instead.

strawberries on my hair!

yumyum.

the verdict: try harder, and i'll update again on the strawberry curler review!

this curlers is just as good. i had these for years. since zaman zaman strawberry short hair. hahaha. it works well for short hair and medium long hair. because it can dry up quicker if you blow dry it. but for long hair like mine ni now, my God! it takes hours. you have to blow dry your hair till you feel the hotness on your scalps! haha. but, these nyonya curler does it magic. and so far it's the best so far lah! never ever mistaken these nyonya product as a nyonya poodle hair. it does magic! ohhhh please don't be shallow minded. go try, and you'll know what i mean. anyhows, it's cheaper and easier. pardon the kental face. focus on the hair! hukhukhuk.

repeat after me. curl-er. hahaha. teacher mirah teaches this.

while letting it dry, ohhh do the face lah. eat, select clothes; bag and shoes.

great for short hair!

stunning for medium hair!

the verdict: very good for any kind of hair. go try it yo! ohhh, blow dry that's the key word. and if you have longer hair like mine, blow dry it longer. it'll work just be paitence. and ohhh, that means the need of waking up earlier than expected! hahs.

this is simply the best. and i do hope someone re-create this stuffs! or better, if anyone of you knows where to get this, please do tell me aye! this schapers is the best. but sadly, i couldn't find this elsewhere. it's a product of germany. and when i google it to purchase it, my oh my! don't haveeeeeee lah. so sad. this works for long hair like mine. and thanks to teacher tilly for giving me these. it was told that she had these since in the 80s. cool! i love vintage stuffs. i told ya, vintage stuffs does wonders. it does ya'll!

bend it like beckham.

lawah kan, lawah kan my curls. jambuuu nyeeee daku! hoho.

the verdict: superly great product made! i would love to purchase more.

curling iron. it's good if someone were to curl for you. it's tiring when you have to do it by yourself. besok jer lah! hahaha. anyhows, i'm a clumsy ass rabbit. i always get my fingers burned. hahaha. and not to forget, if your hair's wet and you start curling with these, my God! it'll become a steam pau. hahahahaha. but still, models and actress still loves this!

ouch, that's hot. psssssst.

the verdict: for models and actresses are welcome!

well, that's all folks!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

HHHHRRRMMMMPPPHHH!!!

2009-06-24T01:24:00.002+08:00

i am mad at you ivan!

orang nak story tell pun tak boleh.

you're certainly a kambing tau!

ya'Allah, baikilah blogger ini. amin.

IT'S NEVER THE SAME OLD THING.

2009-06-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

each time i'm here to tell you how blessed i am, i mean it ivan. from the bottom of my heart, i do mean it. i am really thankful for having someone like him. azri. yes yes. you've heard a thousand million time. i am really bersyukur for having him around, who accepted my every flaws that no one can. no matter how bad i turn out to be, he still loves me in every way. how grumpy i can be, how stupidly manje i can be. how pms strikes me like hell. how irritating, how sad, how proud, how selenger i am. which concludes, i am a selebet square all the time! i thank him for his patience, sincere tender, love and care. how many times he would say he loves me, upteem times! which i totally love it! hehe. and kisses on my forehead, never ever to forget that. it feels like i'm like the most luckiest girl ever. no matter how bad our journey is, communication is just the key to it. i do love communicating with him, compromising, give and take. it's all about it aye. and i remember telling him that sometimes i do forget myself. forget how worthy i am, and his job is to remind me of how worthy i am. and indeed, each waking day i am something to him. and i hope and pray that it will never ever change. =)

ya'Allah, lindungilah kami berdua. lindungilah. amin.

THE DAY AWAITS US.

2009-06-22T13:26:00.001+08:00

One day you will die. Maybe in a way you have never expected. While going to the grocery to buy bread, a car will hit you. Or, a fatal disease will bring your life to an end. Or, simply, your heart will stop beating for no reason at all.

So, you will begin tasting death.

From then on, you will have no relation with your body whatsoever. That body, which you have assumed to be "yourself" all your life, will turn into an ordinary heap of flesh. With your death, your body will be carried by other people. There will be people around weeping and mourning. Then that body will be carried to the morgue, where it will remain for a night. The next day, the burial operations will start. The lifeless body, now very rigid, will be washed all over with cold water. Meanwhile, the traces of death will start to appear and some parts of the body will turn purple.

Then, the body will be wrapped in a shroud and put in a wooden coffin. Proceeding towards the graveyard, life will be as always on the streets. Seeing that a hearse is passing by, some people will show respect, but the majority will go on with their daily tasks. At the graveyard, the coffin will be carried by those who love you or by those who seem to love you. Most probably, there will again be people around weeping and mourning. Then, people will arrive at the inescapable destination : the grave.

On the marble stone, your name will be inscribed. Your corpse will be taken out of the coffin and placed in the pit. Prayers will be said for you. Finally, people with shovels will start to cover your body with soil. Soil will also be thrown into the shroud. It will fill your mouth, throat, eyes and nose. Then the soil will gradually cover your shroud. Soon, the funeral will be over and people will leave the grave.

Then, the graveyard will return to its deep silence. Those attending the funeral will go on with their everyday lives and for your buried body, life will no longer be meaningful. A beautiful house, a pretty person, a breathtaking landscape will mean nothing. Your body will never meet a friend again. From then on, the only certainty for the body will be the soil and the worms and bacteria inhabiting it...

Soon after you are placed in the grave, the bacteria and insects proliferating in the corpse due to the absence of oxygen will start to function. The gases released from these organisms will inflate the body, starting from the abdomen, altering its shape and appearance. Bloody froth will issue from the mouth and nose due to the pressure of gases on the diaphragm. As corruption proceeds, body hair, nails, soles, and palms will fall off.

Accompanying this outer alteration in the body, internal organs such as lungs, heart and liver will also decay. In the meantime, the most horrible scene takes place in the abdomen, where the skin can no longer bear the pressure of gases and suddenly bursts, spreading an unendurable disgusting smell.

Starting from the skull, muscles will became detached from their particular places. Skin and soft tissues will completely disintegrate. The brain will decay and start looking like clay. This process will go on until the whole body is reduced to a skeleton.

Your body, you think to be yourself, will thus disappear in a terrible and disgusting manner. While those you leave behind carry out the customary rituals, worms, insects and bacteria in the soil will eat the body away.

This is the way, a human being's life, created in "the best of forms", comes to the most horrible end possible.

Why?

It is surely by the Will of God that the body ceases to exist in such a drastic way. That it does so actually carries a very important inner message in itself. The terrible end awaiting man should make him acknowledge that he is not a body himself, but a soul "encased" within a body.

In other words, man has to acknowledge that he has an existence beyond his body. Such a striking end, with its many lessons, is made ready for man so that he may understand that he is not mere "flesh and bones".

~~~
By Harun Yahya

SHALL I OR SHALL I NOT?

2009-06-22T13:19:00.000+08:00

i do wanna chop off my hair like hers. gleeee!

nanti orang panggil kite china doll. hoho.

or better, girl jepun. okay, boleh?

hahahahaha. =D

ya'Allah, help me make the right decision. amin.

DAY 1: 14 JUNE 09.

2009-06-21T15:30:00.001+08:00

we bertolak from SG at 8am. head to rumah nenek first before proceeding. meeting place lah konon. cause three family convoy. biase lah, with walkie talkie! hahaha. there's abang jack's, uncle din's and my family! along with zaki and fizah. gleeee. nenek so cute. she wants to feed aiman nye hamster with sabon sey! she thought the packet beside the tank is the food for lil hamster! hahaha, thank God, we shifted the packet of sabon! hehehe. we reached rompin, mersing at around 4pm gitu. check in at serai di lanjut resort. http://www.seraidilanjut.com.my/Home.html the resort not bad lah, macam kat langkawi. didn't manage to go to the beach lah, cause dah penat dah! one resort apartment, fits three family. kecoh lor! well, seafood's the best. gleeee! =D

DAY 2: 15 JUNE 09.

2009-06-21T15:15:00.002+08:00

off we head to pahang, cherating. super gerek lor the hotel. i super like! later i want to make my toilet like that. i love the place. not that bad. i super like residence inn! http://www.ric.com.my/ well, it's lil dany birthday! he very runtung lor. exactly one year ago, his birthday was at australia, brisbane. runtung right he! hahaha. he is super cute lor. but berat, chubby. i still like lor! hoho. then we pick up kak yanti who joined us shortly. sampai jer kat hotel, semua terjun mandi swimming pool. best kan! dah penat mandi swimming, main captain ball! hahahaha. lepak ah, abang jack blanje makan kat hotel, to celebrate dany's birthday. then malam, taboo plus mak-piah ahhh. maut! gleee. =D

i digggggg the toilet lor!

amacam, mr monk neckherman jadi minah bunge. okay pe.
yum yum party!

the lovely family!

mum and dad the rabbit. anaknye satu pun rabbit! hoho.

DAY 3: 16 JUNE 09.

2009-06-21T15:00:00.001+08:00

we jalan jalan ke warung warung lor. super best lah sey. makan lekor yum yum, sajak i think the makanan. like otak otak, sedap to the max. with chilli padi. maut sia, i love love love! then kelapa jelly. unique kan. syiok lor, makan 24/7. hahaha. seafood for dinner the best lor. sotong favourite ibu tau. bukan abah! hahaha. and ohhh, kecoh lor uncle. stop sekejap makan durian. hahahaha. ni kalau azri ada, boleh jadi best friend ngan uncle. hahaha. omg lah uncle! durian also got class tau. d12. macam rapper plak tu. hahahaha. i eat oso lah, tapi kan i never hold the durian lah, later my fingers bau. walau eh, tak cool lor. so i very the manje, ask kak yanti and ayah to suap! hahahaha. gleee! =D

warung paling sedap dan kecoh.

sohdap ye kak. sampai menjilat jari! sengaja nak buat orang tu jealous! hahaha. ni dua ada bradik sekaki sejiwa durian! hahaha. sedap ehkkk uncle. concentrate nampak baba!
maam besar okay. hahaha.

DAY 4: 17 JUNE 09.

2009-06-21T14:45:00.002+08:00

today bertolak ke cameron. it took us 10 long hours to get there! jauh betol lor. over there, we meet cik jamal and family! whoowhooo. i've been to cameron before lah, gerek. the strawberries yang buat syiok! hahaha. i am a strawberry girl. boleh? masih ingat kecik kecik i like strawberries and kiwi. ibu call me, budak kaya makan buah mahal jer! hahahaha. so yeahhh. hoho. we went to equtorial hotel. been to the resort before. gerek lah! http://www.equatorial.com/cam/ this lil boy above, zaki, he is super cute kan. semangat akai my fur coat. cute plak tu! i like! hoho. then while we were making our way, we stop stop kan at perhentian. this little boy, sungguh the funny! he asyik asyik cry aje! gembeng! haha. so we stop at perhentian, he cried. i think he just woke up lah kan, grouchy gitu. he cried. then kak yan ask him, kenape dier ngangis. he said, ready? hahahaha. "zaki confused. zaki tak tahu nak makan ape sebab banyak kedai, tak tahu nak makan ape." ya'Allah, cute betol lah si budak ni! hahahaha. then on the way to cameron, pusing pusing kat bukit that ohhh so tinggi tu kan, orang adalah pening. si zaki ni diam aje. ingatkan ape. nak berak lah sey dier! terpaksa lah stop kat warung to let him yak yak. cute siak. he run to the toilet, bukak selipar and seluar. hahahaha. then masok kreta, says "sorry pakman and bibik, zaki berak tau." ya'Allah, cute betol lah si jekni. berak pun boleh cakap sorry. kecoh!

DAY 5: 18 JUNE 09

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today its a very educational trip! best. we went to strawberry farm. yumyum. makn strawberries and icecream! as usual. hahaha. mak mak semua beli jam and strawberries. kecoh! then we head to the butterfly park. second time! gerek lor. not much changes there. biase jugak petik petik gambar jer. haha. then to boh tea! something different this year. cause we've been to cameron valley before, so this time round, boh tea! yahoooonesss! gleeeee. =D

kak yanti. our nanny. hohoho. at strawberry farm.

at the butterfly park! feeling feeling ah.

the bravest boy, zaki! sumer he pegang okay! berani betol mcm farhan!
ini budak philipines! hahaha.

ngan butterfly pun daku takot okay! hahaha.

budak paling "macho!"

gleeeee!

kak yanti also very the brani! ngan snake lah, all insects dier ambik sey!

dany pun brani! hahahahaha!

i pun action brani! ahhhhhh!

at boh tea's! ibu and ayah sooo cute! they were holding sticks. heh.
lawah lah tu!

log cabin. sumer color baju lawah ehk! earthy!

the great tour of making boh tea!
boh tea! wheeeeeee.
feeling ahhhh macam kat cabin. i love my boots and fur coat! tapi kan, tak sejok langsung lor! hahahaha. kene tipu. boleh?

DAY 6: 19 JUNE 09.

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today, last last rounding in cameron, cause we're heading to melaca! to the forever slalu tinggal sana when we're there lah kan. makhota guest house! http://mahkotaguesthouse.info/ lagipun, it's abang adam nye kawan nye apartment. kecoh lor. two family kat dalam the apartment. uncle and us! hahaha. malam, siap main taboo and mak-piah again lor. kecoh maut. hahaha. believe it or not, mirah and me bought flower from cameron. alhamdullilah it's survive! hahaha. hehe. suke lor! baby sunflowers. hoho. heaven sey kat sana. we bertolak at 12pm then sampai umbai at 8pm. cause wak belanje makan. he dah naik pangkat from asp to dsp lah sey! wah wah wah. haha. so he blanje us along with pak long's family and anak-anaknye lor. hoho. menjilat jari siak at umbai. seafood mau lebih! sotong favourite ibu! gleeeeee! =D

best nyeeeee!

makan heaven.

makan boleh jadi giler.

zaki besar and zaki kecik. banyak persamaan tau ni dua! haha.
hello sara andrya!

sarah so lovely! eeeek, yang mana satu ehk. haha. boleh?

tenggok, the lee foundation kan, giler durian lor. walaueh!

ramai ramai! nenek was there too! huhu.

DAY 7: 20 JUNE 09.

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today balik. kecoh lor. macam a lazy day gitu lah kan. sedih mode pun ada. because back in SG jer, dah kene stress mode balik. sigh! ni nak crite, bukan nak show off lah kan. mat mat kat m'sia sungguh the kelakar lah sey! hahaha. nak cakap mengatal, tak baik lah pulak kan. so, lets just say diorang ni peramah and kelakar. boleh? hahaha. i was ordering makan lah for zaki. then this budak ask me where i come from. i say lah singapore. next thing he said, nak ikot balik singapore boleh? hahahaha. i layankan and say boleh. nak duduk kat bonet ngan barang yang sepenuh tidak pun boleh. hahahaha. skali zaki come to me, then they all shock like hell. anak eh. ah'ah lah, abohden! hahahahahahahahahahaha. and some more, fatherku confident, orang mintak nombor pakcik, straight jet dier cakap anaknye(me!) dah tunang. hahahaha. confident maut lah my dad. abis ahhh azri, sape ehk my tunang ni kan? hahahaha. then ayah said, lagi dua available. mirah, just wait for that boy to call lah ehk. gleeeee! =D

part time umi. no lah, kerusi ratan lah sey! zaki ni very the manje lor!

map of malaysia. macam best kan. nak beli lor. mirr go buy!

very cute photo of lil sister. hahahaha.

YAYA, ONE MORE DAY!

2009-06-19T14:40:00.000+08:00

*this is a schedule post.

good luck my dear friend.

i wish you all the best, love.

and for always, you'll look great.

ya'Allah, lindungilah nye. amin!

JUST FOR YOU.

2009-06-16T02:30:00.000+08:00

*this is the schedule post. =)

SUPRISE!!!!!!

shock tak? hahaha. first of all, i miss you alot. and yes, i hope you've been a good boy and read your schedule letters as it's stated. hoho. =)

well sayang, just to bring back sweet memories. on the day you added me on the msn was the best day of my life. it's like a stepping stone to an adventure. a courageous move i ever made. and all i have to do was to put my trust in me, then in you. with my instincts to set it free. we said hi, and introduce ourselves. and in silence, i googled you. and boy oh boy, i fell for the boy that's on myspace! (singing to the girl that's on tv by lfo). so i acted dumb on not knowing how you look like. but infact, i was excited like mad! and sorry for passing your myspace url to all my excited friends and family members. i'm making you a favour of promoting your hotness. hehe. and i remembered you said, that you look like shrek in person. well you know what? you look like shrek ke, sekeping ke, chubby ke. but still i'm attracted to you. you just makes me happy and i love it. each and every moment of it.

simply favourite picture of you on myspace. taste of chicken! paham paham jelah.

my simple favourite video of you.

we were so malu malu cat at first. but we manage to let it flow and flow and boom it grows! it just happen. the feeling deep inside you, you just know it. well, look at us now! hahaha. you've been paitence and understanding. you stood by me through my hardest moment at that time. you gave me strength and you gave me joys. i'll never forget that. from sharing dreams and weaknesses, i knew i saw something good in you and you are worth it. ohhh remember when we were dating, gosh! we get so emo when something crops up. and from then on, we knew we were right for each other. insyAllah. from adapting, getting used is the hardest. but yet we're still both coping and hoping for the best.

well you know what, Azri. thanks for loving me for who i am. for me being the kentot busuk burp girl, you love it all. from the ketiak basah non-stop, you love it more! for my selenger ways and kluztsness mostly that gets you on your nerves i know! and yes, for being slow tad and yes pronoucing words that turns out horrible as ever. you were just there to correct my every single mistakes. thanks for the guidance and strenghts that you have given me.

lets wait for us to be back and walk hand in hand.

i miss you. alot. and i love you, enormously!

I GOTTA KEEP MY COOL.

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hang on in there. count 1 to 10, breathe in and out. stay cool, no frust. it will be over soon. ohhhh hell, you deserve this trip sarah!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

THE RECAP OF 12 JUNE!

2009-06-14T01:40:00.000+08:00

12 june is the birthdays of two people i love.

alwi's and oda's.

may Allah bless you for always.

amin. =)

oda's birthday at r.c.

alwi's at amirah's grill in 2006.

hahaha, i love alwi's first birthday celebration. i don't know why, it's with the ite gang. and it was super hella fun. maybe because i plan lah sey. hahaha, boleh? kecoh to the max. i reckon you guys to look back at the pictures, and i swear you'll end up laughing non-stop. with alwi ohhh so bedik cakap nak ngangis when he recieve mp3, tak punnnnnn! hahaha. and nora jatoh tergolek kat sofa. yaya with kanak2 strawberry siak the face! hahaha. and me biase jugak, kental to the max online. sumer ah kental, boleh? hahaha. kecoh sak. alwi, let us both wait for 4th eh. eeeee, excited nye daku! tak sabar. boleh? =D

ya'Allah, lindungilah mereka berdua. amin.

LANDSLIDE.

2009-06-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's got into me these days. each time i felt like crying. sometimes i don't even know why. but all i know, i'm dissapointed with people. and today i've learnt that, they are much more dissapointed in me. i'm a such dissapointment. maybe we're lacked of communication, maybe i'm just too tired. maybe commitments is the barrier. maybe i am a truely dissapointment. a failure. a loser. well, i guess i am. and all i wanna do is to strip myself naked, and look at myself in the mirror. watching that fat tears rolled down and hoping that i feel ashamed for my actions. family, friends, relationship, work. why couldn't i manage them all so well? maybe i didn't try hard enough. maybe i'm selfish. maybe i am a dissapointment. and it ohh so get me.

i kept telling myself, i could take this. i swear i can and i will hard for the better to make everything alright. because i know nothing can ever beat the feeling of hearing someone telling you that the one you love is gone. the feeling of watching someone you love is being kapankan. the feeling of kneeling down next to the grave, wishing that it never have to happen.

well thank you, for letting me know that pain do exist in our lives.

FIZOW OMAR!

2009-06-11T10:38:00.001+08:00

okay, i'm in the craze mode of fizow omar for now! hahaha. he appears in gadis merah jambu as a front leading man. hohoho. cute kan dier! pretty boy face. btw, he's on the left lah, at the back. facing down. mum and i totally agree, he looks like aliff. not again! hahahaha. omg, he sungguh cute lor. go check it out. http://www.myspace.com/fizoomar gleeee! =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

ONE MORE MONTH! WE'RE GONNA CELEBRATE. OH YEAH, OH RIGHT!

2009-06-10T10:32:00.007+08:00

today marked exactly one month before my birthday!

hahahaha. boleh? ni nak mintak bende. boleh?

alah, not much jer. bukan nye seberape. hahaha. so yeah, remember everyone, i don't want anything okay. just gimme money jer so that i can save! hahaha. like seriously, i don't need anything lah. am bersyukur with what i already have. alhamdullilah. haha. except for this neckermann sandals. hahaha. i know, so bapak bapak. but i do need a new one. hahaha. so Alwi, Yaya, Nora and Sue, i want these. so please get this for me. http://www.neckermann.com.sg/product_info.php?pid=346 tehehehe. boleh? ni nak manje jer. and then hor, i want Mac Pro. hahahaha. i know, fat hopes! hahahahaha. takpe, tu dah keje boleh beli. hahaha. and to those yang baik hati (good heart!) please lah, everybody lah, share all that money that you want to buy me things kan, save your worries just buy me these. i want tickets to Sing Dollar theather show. ahhhhh. i am long waiting for this! http://esplanade.com/whats_on/programme_info/sing_dollar/index.jsp gleee!

what i want for my birthday is just to be in good health and rezeki.

to get a stable job and yes, a degree. itu aje. amin!

and ohhh, be with everyone i love before it's too late.

=,)

ya'allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I'VE MADE THIS LITTLE BOY SO VERY HAPPY!

2009-06-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

ini budak kecik, woit bukan main gembira dier! tengok dier senyum lebar makes you like ahhhh. boleh? hahaha. kesukaan dier. and i'm happy that he's happy. sampai message nye sungguh the touching sey. boleh buat ngangis tau. hehe. no matter how clumsy, forgetful you are, i still love you. eventhough it freaks me out all the time, its because i care. but the most important thing i know, i am- and i will stand by your side. all the time. hopefully, insyAllah dengan berkatNya. amin. =)

ya'Allah, terimahlah doa-doa kami dan lindungilah kami berdua. amin.

ALL ABOARD!

2009-06-10T02:52:00.000+08:00

went to alwie's. had alot of fun. makan-makan. kecoh non-stop. ice-cream ramai-ramai. and like finally main board games with them lah! hahaha. kecoh siak. the best part is charming. maut pe. ni pun azri yang spot nora. kekek siak. nora nora, tak sangka you got a sceret crush ehk kat abang body. hahahaha. boleh? hehehe. and ohhh, wish sue, ian and omar was there too. takpe, 4th july kan kawan-kawan? ape ehk? hahahaha. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

MUMMY'S FAVOURITE GAME.

2009-06-10T02:48:00.000+08:00

my mum. she's the greatest. she loves solving things, like working out stuffs using our brains. so when i saw these at bugis the other day, straight jack, i bought these for her. cool or what! ma, try to beat this record aye! =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

BEADS JUGAK KAN!

2009-06-10T02:45:00.000+08:00

we spend two hours doing these mind teaser. penat sak. then buat beads jer dah ngantok. hahaha. kecoh lah buat this mind teaser. mini ehk. hakim and monn kalau buat ni, confrim isap rokok mau lebih ehk. hahaha. sigh, i love all of azri's friends lah. yelah, yelah masok you too nunu. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I LOVE DONUTS!

2009-06-10T02:40:00.000+08:00

kecoh kecoh. boleh

ishk, notice tak each pasangan same same.

tengok me and azri, suke buat muke tau! oda and wan senyum slalu.

hahahaha. jodoh ehk?

ya'Allah, lindungilah kami semua. amin.

SITI WAN INTAN KEMBANG.

2009-06-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

everytime i heard or sing fatwa pujaan, i will always remember the tele-movie. siti wan intan kembang. it was my all time favourite lor. setiap raya selalu tape sey. i don't know, i love the story line. sungguh meaningful gitu. tiap tahun tengok, tiap tahun mesti ngangis. lagu nye kene lah pulak. confirm ngangis lah. lagunye jer dah boleh buat ngangis. heh. ni tengah nak tengok lagi kat youtube. eeee best nye! here's the link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LvNqBOBvVQ happy watching! because i am. gleee! =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

WHATSUP BEE.

2009-06-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

what did sushi A says to sushi B?

wasabi.

hahahahahahahaha! =D

went to eat at Hei Sushi with the family. kecoh tu. thanks a million to abang wan and kakak for blanje-ing. nak lagi boleh? hehehe. the tempura ice-cream sohdap giler sey. yumyum. slurps.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

THIS TIME AROUND.

2009-06-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

syukur alhamdullilah, life is never boring when i'm with him. everyday there's something new about him. learning and falling for more, insyAllah. lets keep the positivity aye. today, he did magic tricks with the cards. and it was really amazing. even though it's a trick, to a person like me whose gullible, i will confess i'll fall for it! hah. it takes up skills and practice. and how cool was that! he is cool. he is smart. he is charming! and i told him not to tell the tricks to me. well, i do wanna know but i told him, lets just stay that way, so that i'll look forward to wanting to know the secrets. and yes, do it in future to come too, again and again! he said, "to anak-anak." no! to me first. so that i'll remembered how hard i fall for him more. gleeeeee. then we played with the rubber band. making tricks, alphabets and shapes. hahaha. the trick's coolest! the cutest part is that, he took that rubber band of his (above!) and ikat at my hand and told me, "nah bawak balek ni." hahahaha, macam nak suruh i bilang ivan jer. ke buat mimpi malam yang indah? hehehe.

i love you lah sayang!

you're like the best thing in my life. =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

BIGGER BY THE DAY.

2009-06-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

no, im not pregnant! hahaha. choy! it's just blotted plus i ate too much that's why getting so buncit these days. sigh. menses coming, so it blot crazily! trust me, its horrible. then i began wondering, if ever i am pregnant in future, insyAllah. macam mana sey nak kiss Azri kan. chey chey chey, dah plan ehk. tak pe ah you, i know you like kissing my forehead kan. make sure time nandong, you kiss forehead i lebih banyak. hahahaha. ehhhh suke. =D

ya'Allah, lindungilah kami berdua. restuilah kami. amin.

ALHAMDULLILAH, LIKE FINALLY SEY!

2009-06-06T01:01:00.001+08:00

orang tu kan, dier dah dapat pink ic nye sey!

syukur alhamdullilah. dah ord oh! alwi, you next bro, excited nye daku! best ehk. well, next stop, degree lah nampaknye. insyAllah. lepas tu ape ehk? kha-kha-khawin! eh boleh? nolah, nikah lah sey. hahahaha. insyAllah, amin! and then he will say, samer kan tu. bukan, nikah is the most touching part ever lah to me. i don't know why. tengok abang wan angkat nikah last year, makes me tingle with excitements. and hearing the ustaz like beri ceramah, wah touching like mad lor. seorang suami, harus menjaga isteri. seorang isteri, harus taat kepada suami. wah wah wah. touching pe. touching ah. lagi lagi tengok kakak salam abang wan after nikah. waduhhhh. feeling dok. lagi feeling is when, abang wan kiss akak's forehead. sungguh the touching dot.com kan! beautiful memories ever. so, nikah dulu. okay? hoho.

btw, i love your pink ic lah sey sayang.

come capture me, villian!

boleh? =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

MY CRAVINGS AND ALL.

2009-06-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

ohhh bulan. menses is going to be here again soon! i just know it. cause i'm craving for famous amos cookies right now. like NOW! ahhhh. the black one. my simply raves. and yes, getting all my teeth all so dirty! i like. cepat abis keje esok! i want go grab it. tak tahan lagiiiiii. ahhhhhh! and ohhh, all other symptons that matters too. sigh. ohh bulan.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur kerna daku seorang wanita. amin.

I GOT THE CUTEST BOYFRIEND!

2009-06-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

and he's mine. ohhhhh no! (*singing) pardon me. ahem ahem. well, the other day we went to collect my cert in school and yes, i've finally made my alumni card. yahoooonessss! i am a SP graduant and now an alumni! hehe. and you know, he calls me hao lian. hahahaha. i don't know what it means. (*roll eyes) hahaha. so yeah, when we entered the party shop, and he saw this (above!) he went bonkers. i was paisey lah sey! it's not that i don't like lah. hey! if you only know me. hahahaha. so yeah, he says he wants to buy this as my graduation gift. cute kan, cute kan! hahaha. so i told him, lets and go. without purchasing it. then we go kedai lain to get my stuffs for work. bab bab, we go makan which i thought he completely forgets lah. but no! well i'm not expecting it lah. malu sey when i say i like this or that, then the person buy it for me on the spot. macam the bag incident tu. terok ehk daku. yeeee you bukan kikis duit i. that's his favourite line. malu sey! tapi nak. paham? hahahaha. so when we pass that particular shop, i was like "aikk, tak masok. ok lor. lupe. tak pelah!" dalam hati lah. tak kan nak sebot. eeee tak tahu malu lah! hahahaha. yar, back to the picture. we go makan, then setengah jalan makan i say something like, "i slalu jaga hati you tau." he stops eatting, i thought he's gonna be like mad lah, nak lari cause he took his bag. hahahaha. terkejut sekejap! he unzip his bag and pull that thing (above) out. i was like ahhhhhh. faints! dier ingat lor. hehehehe. cute kan cute kan! no wonder when i want to put stuffs in his bag, he put at the zip depan instead the blakang (that's where he puts the helmet!) hahaha. and that explains when i couldn't find him kat kedai we're in, cos dier senyap-senyap lari ke kedai sebelah! hahaha. pandai tactic nye. betol betol suprise sey. suke, suke, suke! hahaha. i like like like like like pulak. (*beaming) he says i must pose with the helmet to you sey ivan. tak nak ah, i don't want bagi you tengok. nak bagi dier tengok pulak. hahahaha. boleh? don't jealous ehk ivan. bluek. hahaha. and ohhh, he says "i pun jaga hati you jugak. hrmph." hahahaha.

sayang, sayang. you betol betol istemewe.

and you are specially made for me!

gleeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I WONDER WHAT'S THE OUTCOME IS GONNA LOOK LIKE.

2009-06-04T22:50:00.001+08:00

this week was a total hetic! running here and there to get everything's purchase correctly and economically. leg's aching. body's hanging. mind's running like mad! i softly thought to myself, "debbie travis is so cool. she's brillant with designs and yes, she makes it look easy!" hell no, it may look, but it's not! chaotic more like it! hahaha. and nervous. but i had fun, i am expriencing, learning new ropes and working as a team. it may be bumpy, but for all i know i am truely excited! wish me luck, iv' love. =)

ya'Allah, lindungilah daku dan rakan-rakanku. amin.

I LOVE THESE KIDS LAUGHTERS.

2009-06-03T00:59:00.001+08:00

too bad, one of the twins, nawfal is not there. but anyhoos, i had fun. they are like the best thing to look at after a long hard day of work! nawfil, the smallest, is the cutest ever! i adore all of them. and the simple smile just cheers me up, each time. they are the most beautiful creations that God created. =)

ya'Allah, lindungilah anak-anaknya. sayangilah mereka. amin.

WITH THE LOVE ONES.

2009-06-03T00:50:00.001+08:00

thank you for always rooting and being there.

i love you. lots! =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

WITH THE FAMILY.

2009-06-03T00:47:00.001+08:00

thanks for your lovely supports and encouragements.

i love you all. =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

THERE'S ALOT OF THINGS I'VE WISH FOR.

2009-06-03T00:43:00.003+08:00

but one thing i knew, this one wish cant never come true. we wished for material things. we wished for love. we wished for greatness. we wished for health. we wished for beauty. we wished for success. we wished for joys. we wish for forgiveness. we wished for anything that we ever wanted. but we can never wish for someone, to bring back to life.

this is reality, sarah. wake up. she's not coming back.

ya'Allah, mengapakah ia sungguh pedih dan menderita?

I THANK GOD FOR HAVING HIM AROUND.

2009-05-31T15:20:00.000+08:00

i don't know what i'll do without him.

he's just a place where i feel right at home.

he made me safe, he brights me up. he let me know that i do have him.

i am thankful. i am grateful. to have someone to confide in.

to have someone to hold. to have someone who stays by my side.

and most of all, to have someone who loves me.

my flaws and all. =)

ya'Allah, lindungilah kami berdua. amin.

FRIDA KAHLO

2009-05-31T15:10:00.000+08:00

i've just read the biography of Frida Kahlo. i remembered her, for all i knew she has this movie made of her in 2002, Salma Hayek took the lead. i never knew she was a painter. and i never knew that she had a difficult life. she was strong and brave, yet sorrows sets in her big round eyes. she died in her late 40's due to the accident she had in her teens. can you like imagine? an accident that fracture her pelvis! ouch! and from there, she suffers 3 miscarriage. and dealing with her husband's affairs. well, she too had affairs (both female and male) as she was lonesome. i simply love the potrait of her with the cropped hair. where she turns to alcohol and cut out her long brown hair and paints a mural of herself. that was like awesome! i totally feel her plight. well, to read more: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frida. and to watch her movie trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ow-fscLTnZU&feature=related.

i would love to watch the movie!

ya'Alla, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I TOO WANT TO BE A MUM ONE FINE DAY!

2009-05-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

today, i salute to all mum in the whole wide world for being the bravest and strongest person on earth. not forgetting, the mums who had left us, and also to all the Prophets' mum and wives too. and i would like to pat the back of all the single mum with kids. you've been an inspiration to me. juggling everything well and only God knows how you feel. mum makes the world go round. and i hope to be the bestest mum in the whole wide world! insyAllah, in the future lah. gleee. =)

ya'Allah, lindungilah ibu-ibu dan berkatilah mereka. lindungilah mereka daripada kezaliman dan kezinaan. jauhilah mereka daripada api nereka. sayangilah mereka, kesihanilah mereka. amin, ya raban alamin.

MONSTERS VS ALIENS

2009-05-30T12:30:00.000+08:00

it was sungguh best! hahahaha. bob, the jello alike monster is soooo cute! and not forgetting the mr cockroach. susan was brave and smart, i love her! 3D was hillarious and so real. first time watching a movie with glasses, besides at science centre or in aussie, shrek 3D. man, i miss aussie! anyhows, it's a must watch. if you love and apprieciate animations lah! haha. =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur ke atas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

FINALLY, SYUKUR ALHAMDULLILAH!

2009-05-28T13:43:00.000+08:00

thanks to mirr and ayah for coming! aikkk, alwi kat situ? hahaha. menantu lah tu! tahu lah dier. kwang kwang kwang. =D

the 6 surviving souls. we make it! yahooo! =D

for more exciting photos, please do visit the multiply.
i had a blast graduation. and great memories shall be kept.
kecoh pe gambars. hahahaha.
and, degree here i come! =D

ya'Allah, syukur alhamdullilah. amin.

I WISH THERE WOULD BE MONEY RAIN ONE DAY!

2009-05-27T12:20:00.000+08:00

it won't never happen, i know.

but i wish it did. sheesh!

my savings is drying up any sooner.

and freelancing isn't gonna pull me through enough.

i ain't complaining.

i am just hoping!

ya'Allah, lindungilah daku. amin.

JUST FOR YOU!

2009-05-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

thank you for being here for me.

thank you for listening.

thank you for letting me know that i'm not alone.

and thank you for loving me!

you are a true friend indeed, ivan.

and i'm lucky to have you.

with lots of love, sarahlee.

THE BEST 2 EVENTS THAT I WILL REMEMBER MY POLY LIFE!

2009-05-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

the SPinnovex and MMBE pagent will always be remembered.

it sit still on the mannequin, capturing each beautiful memories.

the people, the supports, the team mates, the jitterbugs, the fun!

and ohhh, i am so proud to be a SP graduate! =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur sangat sangat. amin.

DESIGNERS TO BE.

2009-05-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

boleh?

hahahaha. great working with you ladies again!

and i sooooo digged the ikea's breakfast.

so gerek lor. yummy to the max!

sexy.

sweet.
selebet.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!

2009-05-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

Megan Fox is a HE!!!!

ahhhhh, my rave sia she. and when i read this: http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/. oh my god lah! she is like super stunning and all. but it turns out, gag! more to like ouch sia. sex exchanged! ahhhh. asal lah dier tak bersyukur? if she is, i bet he will be a dashing pretty man lor. sigh. tsk tsk. never trust pretty girls. they're bunch of fakers. ye?

ya'Allah, ampunilah dosanye!

OHHHH I LOVE!

2009-05-24T15:23:00.000+08:00

i love the way he make me laughs.

i love the way he makes me smile.

i love the way that he tease.

i love the way that he please.

i love being with him, just a day.

i'll cherish that moment just to take.

i'm waiting for another date.

hurry saturday, come quick lah dei!

haha. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

MY FAVOURITE PASTIME!

2009-05-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

i enjoyed sitting under the block with him doing something.

this time round, we played with papers! haha.

i sungguh love the "baju" story. tehehe.

except, it's so sad that it's time to go home.

sigh.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

THE SUNFLOWER IS HERE AGAIN!

2009-05-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

this time it's the red. gleee!

i want all colours boleh?

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I LOVE NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM.

2009-05-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

if you're looking for laughters, thrills and adventure.

watch this! because i love it!

hehehe. =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I KNOW I HAVE MY MUM'S FEATURES AND MY DAD'S SURNAME!

2009-05-24T15:09:00.003+08:00

ya'Allah, sembuhkan lah penyakit-penyakit ibu dan ayahku ini.

lindungilah mereka. dan sayangilah mereka.

daku mohon kepadaMu. amin.

I WANNA BE MULAN!

2009-05-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

i totally digged Mulan II. best giler! it's more to a romantic love story this time round. and you should watch it! it's about the differences between the male and female. very good animation, i might say! like for instance, Mulan and Sheng fought over the map. that totally remind me of Allan and Barbara Pease's book-Why Men don't listen and Women Can't read maps. hahaha. ohhh i love the couple too damned much! through out the whole journey, they manage to settle thier differences and give in and take. it's a great animation about relationship, i conclude! 2 thumbs up! =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

CAN I, CAN I, CAN I PRETTY PLEASE?

2009-05-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

did you know, Nabi Muhammad swt dan isterinya, Khadijah as is so romantic? setiap pagi these pair of husband and wife comb each other's hair. romantic kan, subhan'Allah. i also want lah sey! nak nak nak! =D

ya'Allah, daku pasti engKau telah sediakan pasangan terbaik tercipta untukku. amin.

MY FIRST SNORKEL!

2009-05-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

it was at sibu island. at uncle yob's island. he owns the island, and of course the villa. that was the first time ever. it was hella fun! even though i very geli of fish. hahaha. until now lah. but hor, still nak jugak swim and snorkel. nak nak nak! so the first time feeding fish was at tioman. and still now i'm kinda in a daze. best gitu the feeling. lagi lagi kalau daku wear the scuba outfit! hahaha. boleh? =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I WISH IT WOULDN'T HAVE TO END.

2009-05-22T17:11:00.000+08:00

i miss this.

alot. =)

ya'Allah, turn back time can?

NEVER SEEN IT COMING.

2009-05-22T16:26:00.002+08:00

i was watching the video that mrs sim gave the cd to us. omg lah. i can't stop crying. seeing mr sim being interview brings back laughters and smiles when we poop over his house each year. hell yes, we all miss him. too damned much. it's been nearly 3 months after his departure. and he's one of the teacher that believe in us that we would go far in life. he's one strong man and funny mr.magoo ever! =')

ya'Allah, tempatkan lah ia disisi baikMu ya'Allah.

KARMA WORKS IN A MAGICAL WAY.

2009-05-22T16:13:00.002+08:00

i totally believe in karma.

it will just get back to you, haunting. daunting.

all you can do is not to shake it off.

take it like a man!

ya'Allah, engKau maha besar dan Esa.

A DREAM IS A WISH YOUR HEART MAKES.

2009-05-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

i wish i have alot of money. so i can go travelling around the world. seeing the beauty that God has created. the sceneries, the places, the natural mother earth. the creatures, the people, the children. i wish i could adopt children. alot of them! we'll be laughing merrily and giggling and tickling. i want a dozen of them around me. ohhh, how i wish! =)

ya'Allah, terimalah doa-doaku. amin.

THE PLACE WHERE I WANNA BE.

2009-05-22T01:43:00.000+08:00

i always get carried away when i went over to cik habsa's. alot of time indeed that i get too carried away! it's just that we enjoyed talking, laughing, giggling, story-telling and not to mention weeping here and there too. i somehow felt that we both know how it feels to lost saren. i know how it feels, as a mother. because to me, saren plays a big part too in my life. i grew up with her, sharing things and everything. from the littlest lie, biggest secrets and things that lingers in the deepest of minds and heart. we both knew each other in and out, closer that fulfilling dreams. soon it'll be three years, yet both of our hearts still not mended. we cry, we laugh at the thought of her. i guess we're only human afterall.

the touchiest part when i'm there, it feels like saren's eye-ing us. it feels like her presence was sitting next to us. and each time i'm there, her mum would beg me to stay longer. and she would say, come again sooner and accompany her. and each time i'm there, her mum thank me. thank me for being a good friend, for thinking of her and for visiting her. i wish she didn't have to go, i wish she stayed. but Allah loves her more, and all i know she's in safe hands.

and i hope you do understand the meaning of pain; love and life, ivan.

it is to treasure. to cherish. to savour. each and every moment of it.

before it's the last. before it's too late. =,)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

ONE OF THESE.

2009-05-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

yes, this will be in my list.

ahhhh mr hot air, wait for me.

ya'Allah, terimalah doa-doaku. amin.

SHOES GALORE!

2009-05-22T01:16:00.000+08:00

horrible. call me horrible! tsk tsk tsk.

i souldn't be spending and here i am, syaitan bisikkan "beli sarah, beli!"

i know it's kinda merepek to wear these in sg lah, but who cares. i just wanna own them. gleee! kalau lah kat aussie, i will sure wear these and win ohhhh Simonku (boleh?) nye heart. hahahaha. and says, "wanna go for a ride cowboy?" hahahaha.

i know i have plenty of heels. and boleh boleh nak beli for graduation. merepek kan daku! i wanted the gold, the silver, the croc skin and ohhhh, the red will be next in line! hot kapeh! natasha's mum gave me this. hahaha. because i'm small size as her. hoho. best kapeh! it's so glittery, macam penyanyi hollywood terkenal gitu lah kan, nyanyi kat stage. hahaha. rocker babe. and yes vintage! i would love to keep! rare tau. and next, i can't wait to get my hands on the leather boots yang sampai ke tighs tu. hot sey! ahhhh. and ohhh, mum says i look like wonderwomen when i wore these cause i'm wearing ahem! hahahaha.

lastly, not forgetting sister lop nye slippers lah sey from tioman. boleh?

ivan, care for me to do the parade for you?

tehehehehe. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

TO KHAIRUDDIN LEE!

2009-05-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

rudy, just don't gag when you see this!

hahahahahhaha.

talking about dream come true lah sey.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

LIFE'S A CHOICE.

2009-05-20T21:52:00.001+08:00

i can't be possibly making everyone happy. i know one party would be hurt and the other merry. i dislike this feeling, where you're stuck in the middle and stressing yourself out. i don't want to dissapoint any of them, i want to see happy smiling faces. i want both, can i get the best of both worlds instead.

ya'Allah, engKau maha mengadil ia bukan? daku percaya akan kamu, ya'Allah. daku mahu membahagiakan semua orang.

I WANTED THE FINS!

2009-05-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

as a child, i always love the little mermaid. tehehe. i wish i have fins and swim swim swim like ariel! hahaha. i know i sound goofy. i even wanted to find the fin for hahahaha, future purposes! hahaha. kan best. wait for hubby kat bathtub. boleh? and ohhh, i spend the whole day watching the little mermaid. skarang until part 3 you know, ivan! best giler sey. =D

ya'Allah, i want the mermaid outfit. boleh?

BANANA'S IN PYJAMAS!

2009-05-20T03:24:00.000+08:00

i have this sudden craves for banana. don't know why. banana juice. hmmmm, soooohhdap nyeeee! ermmm, banana boat- chocolate ice cream with banana and fudge and nuts. yum yum. pisang goreng pun jadi lah! =D

ya'Allah, asal banana lah tibe-tibe ni ehk.

STORIES OF AZRI.

2009-05-20T03:14:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to love arthur for one particular reason. he does look alike like azri. and no, i'm not mocking at him or making fun. it's just that i love him the way he is. they sure do look alike! hehehe. siap lah dengan akai specs nye, along with the song "hey, hey! it's a wonderful day!" hahaha. cute kan. like he always says, "you sorang je yang see thru my flaws. i chubby gini, you sorang jer nak. i biase ajer, pun you nak." mestilah! looks is not important, eh bedek ah, important jugak ehk. hahaha. then the hati. the connection between two souls is also very important jugak! vice versa, i'm not even pretty lor to begin with. i'm just a short ass who has my insecurities jugak. orang sumer senang cakap kite ni kurus, padahal they don't understand me that even though i eat alot pun tak boleh naik badan. you think easy ah? Allah dah beri gini, bersyukur lah! and i am bersyukur to have him in my life lah. and i do love him, in any way he is. honest! =)

the both of us still goes gaga over the tioman trip lah. hahaha. it's like the trip has made our bonding stronger lah. macam gini, must every year ge honeymoon. eh boleh? hahaha. and through this trip, i get to know more about him. and yes, the joy of teamwork!

for instance, he has this duty, ye ke duty or is it responsiblities, tehehehe, of taking care of me. and indeed he does take good care of me. he always walk behind me to make sure that i'm safe. cumer skali skala he excited, he lari first to masok in the water! hahahaha. ohhhh yes, i remembered all so well. after makan we all go snorkelling. suke? SUKE! tehehehe. i was so excited lah. swim swim sampai ke tengah laut. and then, i puke. yes, puke! hahaha. carrot juice. boleh? ikan sampai makan kot. hahaha. eeewww. i wanted to snorkel some more, i really really wanted to see fish. i know i'm bloody irritating lah sey, but i really wanted to join the gang to snorkel too deep. and then i really couldn't take it. i just want to snap my fingers just to be on shore. hahaha. then this azri, cepat cepat pull me to go on shore. i rode on his back, like serious i can't breathe. senak you know ivan! i sampai open my lifejacket. haha. then on shore, thanks to oda lah sey! nasib got nurse. alhamdullilah. at that moment macam touching lah pulak. ada hero save me lah konon. =D

teamwork with azri was the best. imagine tengah snorkel and he wants to save me. save lah konon! hahaha. he wasn't wearing lenses or specs tau. imagine, buta. hahahhaa. tak lah buta. just blur jer. i'll be his eyes and he'll be my hands and legs cause mana lah i tahu swim lah kan. teamwork kan. cute lah gitu. snorkel snorkel pegang tangan. kekek sak. sampai monn ketawe bahak-bahak dalam air! hahaha. kecoh. and yes, not forgetting he kept my passport safe lah! and we took turns to keep the money. you know my dear azri, dier kan mr.clumsy. haha. and the funny part was that, he claims "women is good at keeping things. nah you jaga the money, the camera." hahahaha. tahu tak pe! i can jaga everything lah sey, but one thing for sure, i want him to jaga me! hahahahaha. boleh? =D

i know i did told you before that he had qatam Qur'an right. and he baca surah punye lah sedap kan! hahaha. boleh makan. so otw to tioman, he baca-baca lah surah from the book. omg lah he baca sungguh the pantas! and the 99names of Allah too. part malam nak tido pun, we baca doa nak tido and surah-surah. sweet lah konon. memang sweet! because deep down i know, it's him that i want to be with lah. he can guide me and yes, he promise that we shall polish my iqrak first! eeeee, best nye! and ohhh, just by looking at him, i know it's him that i wanna share my life with. it just feels so right, feel so home gitu. it is lah! =D

the cutest part was i told him, "lets go for a walk to the beach." you know him, he ada sikit yaaaaa, but hahaha. pegi jugak kite berdua! and ohhh, jangan pikir bukan2 ivan. setan tu! hahahaha. suke lah pegi beach malam2, just kite berdua! haha. i was like practically running just to see the stars. hahahaha. it was like amazing. i always wanted to see million of stars with the one i love. it's like alot lor. kalau boleh ambik gambar, lawah lor! ahhhh, macam dream come true! suke! then i started twirling myself and ohh so giddy, nasib he caught me off gaurd before i slipped! hahaha. then we broke into hillarious laughters. my oh my, it is a wonderful night. all i know, we both look at each other, smiling ohhh so wide. wider than my sepet eyes could open. hahaha. boleh? and then we started saying thanks. thanks to each other for being there, for loving the way we are, for that moment, for all time. touching kan, kan kan kan. ahhhhhh. and ohhhh, i remembered him saying dulu. "you're like the brightest star among all stars." and you know what, we find the brightest star that night. and i'm glad that he remembered what he said! hahaha. ahhhh, i wish that moment to never end. never! =D

and i wish that kiss on my forehead to never end too.

it means alot to me. it means how much he loves me.

it means so much more. alot more than anything.

ohhhh i wish, the moment of us will never has to end. =)

ivan, don't cemburu okay.

hahahahaha. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

AWAK, NAK POST YANG PANJANG BOLEH? BOLEH, BOLEH, BOLEH!

2009-05-20T02:21:00.000+08:00

today was gerek lor!

alwi and me went to nafa to support yaya and nora. hahahaha. kecohrable. mrs sim pun ada. touching ehk. i had a blast laughing with the guys. dah lamer tak nampak. hahaha. amacam, dah graduate nanti, bleh lah hari2 ge bp ehk makan sushi and bubble tea! ohh, ock jugak ehk. hahaha. kawan kite ni, kaya raya sak. dengan $5 boleh buat macam2. hahaha. and then one of us sungguh sexy. 3 lapis baju, pheeeweeet lah sey! hahaha. yang lagi satu, aju asyik sedut2. hahahaha. boleh?

rock the boat!

dua2 muke cramp siak.
with mrs sim!

suke yaya?

hahahaha. jon tucker must die! boleh?

alahai cik mek molek lah si baby ni.

omg, i'm so dark siak. ebony, boleh?

suke kat fountain? hahaha.

i had a lovely laughing day, ivan!

and i love nora, yaya and alwi. and wish sue was here. =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

FROM TIOMAN, WITH LOVE.

2009-05-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

it was hellaphun!

the great food. burger ramlee. haha. the waterfalls. the sea. snorkeling. feeding the fishes. taboo. makpiah. hahaha. the laugh out loud. and yes, taking pictures underwater. kecohrable! ketam gigit nab's hot butt. haha. monn with his forever cuteness. hakim with his gentel bende! haha. oda's with her care and concern. azri with his clumsyness! (thank god, i'm not the only one whose clumsy and klutzness!) haha. ayeed with his forever funny stories. yan and his hyperness. wan with lazy eyes. main makpiah pun boleh tido. haha. appy and his coke panas! hahaha. and amy, with her butt stuck at the waterfall! hahaha. funny lah semua. kecoh. i had the best first trip ever! =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

WHEN YOU KISS ME.

2009-05-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

"This could be it, I think I'm in love

It's love this time

It just seems to fit, I think I'm in love

This love is mine

I can see you with me when I'm older

All my lonely nights are finally over

You took the weight of the world off my shoulders

(The world just goes away)

Oh, when you kiss me, I know you miss me,

And when you're with me, The world just goes away

The way you hold me, The way you show me that you adore me

Oh, when you kiss me

You are the one, I think I'm in love

Life has begun

I can see the two of us together

I know I'm gonna be with you forever

Love couldn't be any better."

- When You Kiss Me, Shania Twain

kissing to me doesn't mean have to be on the mouth, lip locking blah blah blah. what i love about a kiss is on the forehead. it's like a sign of graditude. a sign of blessed, loved and thankful. and each time azri kisses my forehead, it'll never fail to bring smiles on my face. like gleeee lor! hahaha, and only alwi aje tahu macam mana kite ambik gambar di atas tu sey! kekek sia. hahaha. time dating is sungguh the best. but, time skarang lagi sungguh the best! in the future, sungguh lagi lagi the best! chey boleh predict ehk. yelah, kalau skarang kiss forehead dah macam j gitu, in the future kiss husband nye tangan lagi j to the max online lah hey. i can foresee, confirm i'll cried when nikah, the first time cium tangan hubby. ehk boleh gitu? hahaha. =D

ya'Allah, lindungilah kami berdua. amin.

PAYA PAYA SAKURA!

2009-05-18T22:06:00.001+08:00

the holiday trip was the greatest!

thanks to my mum and dad for letting me go lah. first time nie. and it's sungguh syiok lah. ada lah part yang jiwang, cause i've always been on holidays with my family for ages, and then nie first time travelling without them. jiwang lah kejap. but, but, thanks to all for taking care of me. especially oda and azri lah! tioman was so gerek lor. makan, adventuring to the waterfalls, late night games, snorkeling and have a bloody great time with azri and friends lah! sungguh best. thanks for making the first trip so wonderful and meaningful. i sungguh love it! =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur kerna selamat pulang. amin.

SEE YOU SOON!

2009-05-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

for the mean time, miss me ivan!

and yes, i miss you too!

hahaha. =D

ya'Allah, lindungilah kami semua supaya selamat pergi dan pulang. amin.

I JUST LOVE HIM MORE EACH DAY LAH!

2009-05-14T00:58:00.000+08:00

for all i know, i am very thankful to have him in my life.

he's been my pillar of strength, my faith, my everything. he taught me the rights, the wrongs and corrected my mistakes. seriously, i never noticed how "abang-abang" he is, because he's just the baby, the manje one, the cheeky and mischievous one. until hah ambik caw! he talks about something serious to me. i was frantic of course! but, we'll just let it flow aye. being the eldest at home, i wish i could see how he handle his responsiblities behind the close doors. for all i know, he handle it well back in camp. what can i say, "he's the best driver!" hehe. and ohhh, he's a responsible leader who plans well for his team mates and he works hard for it. =)

being with him, it's like blooming, growing and glowing. i treasure each day with him. we learnt more about each other, yes that includes the little stitch-ups after the torn and tatted. that makes us stronger together. laughing with him, is like music to my ears. looking at him is like staring a baby, which you'll never get bored of it. most of all, i am thankful for him, for accepting me for who i am. i mean, sape lah nak perempuan yang macam daku ni, yang suke burp lah, kentot lah, berpeloh rabak (i shall not say more, i don't want to paiseh myself lah okay! hahaha.) and above all that, he still loves me. for who i am. he loves my flaws, my everything. and that's where, i feel at home. =)

people asked me, "how do you know that he's the one?" or "how do you know that he loves you?". well you know what, psssst- you just know it! it's inside you. =)

so, mr best driver, biler nak hold hand ngan miss congieniality ehkk?
=D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I AM SO GONNA WATCH THIS!

2009-05-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

it's not in the movies. hurhur. Lie With Me(2005).

hahahaha. the trailer looks good, and ohh the sypnosis sounds great too. all i know, i am so gonna watch lor. steamy lah konon! haha, like lesbian porn. hahahaha. bottom line, the guy-Eric Balfour is super hot and yummy! hahaha. and the female-Lauren Lee Smith is hot too! man, i love her. she appears in csi, no wonder she looks super familiar! God, both of them acts great together and yes, they sure do get the chemistry. so tasty! hahaha. boleh gitu. =D

http://www.tribute.ca/movies/Lie+With+Me/12361

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

HELLO MCDONALD!

2009-05-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

brought mum and dad for a suprise to queenstown's mcdonald!

but this time round, it's really the mcdonald lah. hahaha.

the 4 beradik sungguh excited lah.

cause got tortoise. hahaha.

most important, ayah and ibu like too!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

IT KEEPS ON GETTING BY.

2009-05-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

"I wish this could be a happy song

But my happiness disappeared

The moment you were gone

Don't think I ever believed that

This day would come

Now all I'm feeling is lost and numb

And ohhh I know I promised

Mmmm that I would try

But I, yes I, miss you

And it's killing inside

I'll always be thankful for the time we had

We were blessed I should celebrate

But I feel too sad

All the wonderful memories

Just make me fall apart

And it feels like somebody's

Stabbed me in my heart

And ohhh I know I promised

Mmmm that I wouldn't cry

But I, yes I, miss you

And it's killing inside

Ooh well I, yes I, miss you

Want you by my side

Walking, holding hands

Talking, making plans

Touching my heart my soul

I wish this could be a happy song

But my happiness disappeared

The moment you were gone

Tell me it's not happening

Say it's not as it seems

Tell me that I'm gonna wake up

It's just a bad dream

Please tell me that it's fiction

Tell me it's just a lie

Whatever you choose to tell me

Please say you didn't die

And I, yes I, miss you

And it's killing inside

Ooh well I, yes I, miss you

Want you by my side

Ooh well I, miss you

Want you by my side

Back here by my side

Here by my side."
- Missing you, Jem

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

SO SWEET OF NATASHA!

2009-05-13T00:23:00.001+08:00

so sweet kan!

i laughed and cried lor.

i love my SPmates very the much!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. dan lindungilah mereka. amin.

CARNIVAL FIESTA.

2009-05-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

with sweet candy floss in my hand, pointing to the ferris wheel saying "i want to ride that mummy!", errrmmmm, no maybe lets try the viking instead. or the twirling teacup i smiled. how about i ride it all? with musical playing that fits in the stillness of the night. clowns juggled and smiled at me. aroma of the popcorn blooming! the night falls and everyone's happy.

take me there, ivan.

there's where i wanna be in my dreams tonight.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

HAPPY BURPDAY KAKAKKU TERSAYANG!

2009-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

i'm not revealling your age aye!

hahahaha. =D

kakak, i love you very much.

ya'Allah, lindungilah kakakku yang tersayang ini, murahkanlah rezekilah dan panjang kan umurnya. amin.

HAT AHOY!

2009-05-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

it was hillarious. i never shop with two guys before lah and asking for thier opinion. especially on a hat lah! hahaha. boleh gitu. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

NOTHING CAN EVER BEAT THE PAIN, WORST THAN THESE.

2009-05-11T04:11:00.000+08:00

it's just too weird to not tell her things that's kept deep down in my heart. the newest gossips or how excited i can be on one tiny little stuff. the secrets, the problems, the fears, the aims and the hopes. it's just too weird. too weird to not hear her, or reach her. touch her, feel her. except, i can only look forward to visit her, to touch the green grass bed, to softly weep and cry out loud deep down-yearning for her. it's only weird to just stare at the tombstone, wishing that she never has to go away.

i really, really wish she's still here.

i really, really, really wish God could stop these pains.

ya'Allah, sayangilah daku. lindungilah daku. ringanilah keperitanku.

I LOVE THE KAMPONG!

2009-05-11T03:52:00.000+08:00

jenga, uno, taboo and life is gerek loh!

and i love the kampong. so very the much.

i had the bestest day of my life!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

I LOVE COMING DOWN TO YEW TEE.

2009-05-11T03:48:00.000+08:00

it's like my second home. ut bb. ut bb. ut bb. hahaha.

and playing taboo and life with azri's friends was so gerek loh!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

2009-05-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

to all mothers,

happy mother's day!

you made the world go round.

ya'Allah, lindungilah ibu-ibu dan sayangilah mereka. amin.

OFF THEY GO!

2009-05-10T13:36:00.000+08:00

as mum and dad getting on age, they love to travel. well, that's actually it's a good thing lah. enjoy retirement. but, the horrigible part is that, i should be working lah sey! and give them money. hahahaha. =D

it's a mother's day retreat with the artists to melacca and port dickson. suke? SUKE? hahaha. =D

ya'Allah, lindungilah mereka berdua. amin.

MY FUNNY PARENT!

2009-05-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

i think they were so beyond excited for this weekend trip. yelah tu, nak celebrate mother's day dengan artist maklum lah. boleh gitu! hahaha. =D

1. my mum came into my room and say, "dik dik, sini dik." dikkkkk daku pintar. haha. it sounds so serious. i thought got cicak ke, hump kat rumah meletup ke. choyed! past tense. hahaha. skali i come inside her room and she asked, "mana kene ehk?" hahahaha. ibu, ibu! i laughed non-stop lah. she's always gini tau. she will ask me mana kene. funny lah. ni somemore dah siap gantung! i was like, "maaaaaa. ape sey!"

2. ada tikus kat uma! hahahaha. choyed again lah! abang wan first time exprience akak in-between snacks in the middle of the night semasa shi shi at night. hahaha. and we claimed to have a tikus besar kat umah and decieded to lock all food, securely! hahaha.

3. mak long zai called. and yes lah, they all ghairah nak celebrate this weekend. hrmph! and dad kept on emphasizing "bangun siang tau. shubuh kene kua ni hah!" when ayah said shubuh, i burst laughing. he and his pehlatness. hahahaha. and ohhh, this phrase makes me laugh harder. "si j-nab ni hah, satu jam dier pikil-pikil nak pakai baju ape. abeh abang cakap pakai aju angkat nikah lah, color pulpul tu." hahahaha. ada paham? hahahaha.

hahahaha.

ya'Allah, lindungilah mereka semasa dalam perjalanan mereka pada minggu ini. daku sayangi mereka. amin.

I FIND THIS VERY CUTE LOR!

2009-05-07T02:02:00.000+08:00

i was so tired tagging the pictures at fb sia. hahahahaha.

tengah mesmorized kenangan terindah lor!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

SEAFOOD GALORE!

2009-05-07T01:58:00.000+08:00

thanks to kw and naseer! semoga rezeki mereka bertambah, amin. best lah! and ya hor, asal kite tak panggil naseer abang ehk. samer jugak ngan faizal. hahahaha. =D

btw, alwi. 1st ns pay, jangan lupe kami! =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

HARRY PORTER GONNA GRADUATE!

2009-05-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

we collected our robe. is that what you called? graduation robe. hahahaha. next stop will be the hat thingy aye. insyAllah. we bumped into the chinese guys. amacam lagi, rindu giler lor! gossips and update punye lah banyak! kecoh kedai tu dibuatnye! hahahaha. =D

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

THE BODYGUARD.

2009-05-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

suddenly, i felt like having a bodyguard. hahahaha. kalau lah kaya ehk. best kan. macam pegi sini sana, dier ikut kat blakang. hahahaha. stalker gitu. and ohhh, lepas tu tengok dier bukak baju. eeeeee, merepek sak daku! hahaha. =D

azri, nak apply keje? jadi my bodyguard lor. full-time!

ya'Allah, i'm over-reactingkan. astaghfirullah.

I LOVE LAUGHING WITH HIM!

2009-05-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

sitting under the block with him is the raves!

makan-makan. play games lah. guitar and nyanyi lah. and ohhhh, joking also!

nothing better to do kan. hahaha.

btw, we look selebet sesama. lawah sesama. miang sesame.

kata sehati sejiwe mah!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I LOVE THE CLICK 5!

2009-05-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

like finally, the girls finishes thier critique. jia you yaya and nora!

and yes, sue will be going for 6 months training at hta soon.

alwi will be serving his national service in june.

and i'm. i'm loving my life.

shape up sarah! you've enjoyed enough. start finding a job!

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.

I LOVE TABOO WITH THE FAMILY!

2009-05-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

head down to the keppel. yahoonesss!

and played taboo with the family and mak long's.

gerek kapeh. and we spent the whole time farting the place.

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. alhamdullilah.

I LOVE IT WHEN HE ASK FOR MY HAND!

2009-05-03T01:35:00.000+08:00

it's normal for couples to have a tiff. bedik ahhh kalau couples cakap tak pernah gadoh sey! hahaha. of course, azri and i too had our up's and down's. and being just there, beside your partner will always feels right. the key to this solution, never fire a flaming fire. one has to be calm while the other outrage. don't take too long, because it's bad. bad, bad, bad. tsk tsk tsk. count one to ten, or better baca al-fateha! what i really like about azri is, he never take too long to settle his whirling mind. it took him a moment to calm down and that's it. abit of merajok here and there - it means attention! hahaha. and vice versa for me too lah! well it's good, because i really dislike men with ego. and then next thing you know, he will ask you for your hand! eeeeee, best nye! =)

awak, nak hand boleh? =)

ya'Allah, daku bersyukur keatas nikmatMu yang engKau berikan. amin.